Time Machine

I once thought it would be really amusing to go back in time and change certain aspects and challenges of my life with what I know of now.

Then I start having different thoughts. If I was to go back and play my cards right in middle school (one of the lowest points of my life), you can imagine how different things play out for the future because I wouldn't know what happens and a lot of the best things that happened in life will have never happened.

The moral is: Accept the past for what it was, the good and the bad and move on knowing what could possibly be gained from it.

Yes, I'm fully aware this post has NOTHING to do with a time machine.

Last Day of the 19th Year

I guess today summed up and made me think about life at the age of 19.

Last night I hosted a Birthday Movie Night that went smooth with a bit of turbulence and then crashed and burned when my parents pulled the plug on it.

Ticked me off that as I approach the age of 20, my parents still have so much authority on my life and I guess I made it clear today that I want control of my life when I stormed out of the house and drove out.

Personally, I think its been a year of more downs than ups. So much has happened since my last

birthday both academically and socially.

Pretty explicit stuff here. I found love again for a while but things didn't work out well and I ended up finding out more about myself and my preferences.

I learned that I can be ambitious but lack the resources and connections to fulfill any of my ambitions.

So I'm concluding my 19th year and entering my 20th year, by trying out a large cup of Seattle's Best Coffee, er..Mocha, whatever. It's pretty good stuff.

Rainy Days

No, this is not an emo post.

After one moderate summer and an even more unusual "Indian summer" that hasn't seemed to really kick in yet, I'm wishing more rain again.

Living in SF, it feels like every year passes with less rain. I remember those storms that happen once and a while but that hasn't happened at all these past few years.

Let's face it, I love rain. It's a love-hate relationship that I can endure.

I always used to think I was a summer person but let's face it, I'm a winter person. Everything about it is welcoming to me.

The sights, daylight savings, and night time are some of the best.

Some of my best memories happened in the rain.

I can't wait until winter.