Luck = Bullshit

So I woke up today thinking to myself.

If karma does exist, it's probably bullshit and the same goes to one's luck.

I have probably done more selfless acts than most people I know and still end up getting nothing or worst luck out of it.

So as a bold testimate, I don't need luck; fuck karma.

Fat

Ok, If I think I'm fat at the moment...and relationships make people fat...then If I got back into a relationship...damn.

Just a Thought

I appreciate having good friends but I never would have thought I would be hurt unintentionally by them.

If any of you guys read this. I love you all but please, keep that shit to yourselves and not when you have guests around. It's rude even if you all don't notice.

Don't be surprised when I start to say "no" to any invites.

I wanna say its nothing personal but it really is. Please respect that.

Refurbished

Refurb = It has failed before.

I will never buy something refurbished.

Corrections

I feel like the reason why I stopped blogging is simply:

I made this a lot more complicated and serious than I had intended in these last few posts.

I remember when I had a lot of fun just blogging about something totally random.

2005-2007 I did these little picture blogs on Xanga. That was a fun concept but it was tedious.

I moved to Tumblr shortly after the last blog I made here and I didn't adjust well to it.

So here I am. Back again.

I gotta keep in mind from now on. If I blog. Keep it simple.

Apple & The iPhone Prototype

Whoever's fault it is, I'm pretty sure Steve Jobs also has someone to point at.

Although it seems like ancient history, the story of the lost iPhone prototype has been one of the biggest buzzes this year.

To make a long story short (because this blog is opinionated after the facts), an Apple engineer lost his phone at a bar on March 18. For reasons beyond me, the person who found it did not turn it in (no surprise since its rare that someone would do that) and took it home.

The finder noticed something odd about this iPhone and took it out of its case. Turns out this iPhone isn't your ordinary iPhone 3G/S. Its more boxier, sleeker and has a camera built-into the face of it.

Here's where I think the crime lays, the finder sells this lost item to Tech-blogging site, Gizmodo and as a result, a journalist's home was raided and the source of all this. Apple.

Who's fault is this? Although the law is the law and they're holding the blogger responsible at first, this case runs deeper than just simple logic. I did leave out the fact that the finder did try to reach Apple and the engineer in order to return it (I'm confused as to why he would sell it off in the end) and Jason Chen (the victim) had agreed to return the iPhone back to Apple.

In the interest of fairness, I want to list out the rights and wrong's on EVERYONE who was involved. (a lot of what may be right or wrong is heavily opinionated by me)

Right:
- Seller tried to contact Apple
- Gizmodo editor, Jason Chen, wants to hand over the iPhone prototype back to Apple.
- (According to Apple) The engineer who had lost the prototype was not fired but his whereabouts, unknown to us.
- Legally, Apple has to issue a notice of return for the missing item and had it issued to Chen.
- Chen complies and agrees to hand it over.
- This iPhone prototype has a face camera. (That's pretty cool)

Wrong:
- The Seller did not turn in the missing item
- Apple representatives over the phone deny the seller any response when first contacted.
- Seller sells the iPhone to Gizmodo for money. (I think that constitutes as a crime)
- Gizmodo agrees to buy (according to law) "stolen property".

- Gizmodo reveals the identity of the engineer by exposing his Facebook page and name. (that is messed up)
- A SWAT team which was sourced by county police through Apple's security team raids the house of Jason Chen and confiscates his work possessions. (In my opinion, I believe that should've been illegal. Despite the fact that Chen was a mere blogger and the law protects journalists from being prosecuted and having their possessions taken in, Chen works under Gizmodo and is paid to blog. Not even freelance, I believe that should allow him to be considered a "journalist")

So I guess the big question is, who's to blame for the start of this?

Is it the seller who should have just "done the right thing?" by turning in the authorities?
Is it Apple for leaving such a top secret project to someone who wasn't at work?
Is it the engineer's fault for losing it?
Is it Gizmodo's fault for purchasing "stolen" property and exposing it to everyone?

It's clear who is to blame for everything that followed up (the raid, the ridicule, the exposure, the extensive legal works).

There is never a clear answer to this because the law barely solves moral issues. Think of Apple as the aggressor for pursuing all the people who were involved but think of the engineer whose young adult life is tarnished by Gizmodo's exposure. Then you have Jason Chen who gets his house raided from all this but he was just doing his job as a reporter, whether it was the right thing to do or the wrong thing to do, that's up to your opinion. The results that come out of this will take some time.

Personally, if this prototype will be the next iPhone, it will still generate enough buzz and even though it was leaked. I really want one.

Weird Dream: Pregnant Woman Gameshow

Ok, less serious stuff this time.

So I was having a dream one night and it was bizarre.

I think this happened because I spent an hour thinking of ways to make money and it got implemented into my dream.

So I created and began hosting a game show.

The rules are simple:

6 pregnant ladies start off at the beginning of an obstacle course.

They must battle their way through various challenges and stuff.

First woman to reach the finish line and gives birth wins $60,000.

I know, that was the most sick and ridiculous dream or idea ever. I thought it was pretty funny at the start.

I remember telling Nelson all about it, and he gave me a lecture on abuse and laws that restrict pregnant woman from doing such things in order to protect them but, honestly...if I ever had the money and resources, would I ever do that? No.

But really, it was pretty funny to dream up.

Reflection Time

Well, judging by my last blog. It's been a while since I've posted something.

A lot has happened these past near-2 months. I guess I can say with some ease and a clear mind that I got in a car accident on March 7th near Baker Beach.

Although I'm blessed to not have been hurt, the bicyclist that struck my car who was going downhill did.

I'm pretty sure both sides had never wanted this to happen but because I didn't have the right of way (disregarding why he didn't make an effort to avoid this), I have to pay the price (or as of right now, my insurance).

I can't do much as of right now but I hope him a speedy recovery and that I meant no harm. This accident had caused me as much grief as it had probably done to him and his family.

I had learned a lot from these past couple of months. A lot of which were life changing and eye-opening.

So I list here things I'm going to want to pursuade for the remainder of this year.

- Financial security
- A special talent
- Better time management
- Develop further interest in school
- Not to be wasteful
- Find some way to help someone in need (donating to the needy)
- Find an opportunity to see the world
- Explore a new career

And here I list things I'm going to put aside for the sake of bettering myself.

- Dating someone who has too many expectations of me
- Dating someone who wants more out of me than the basics
- The urge to use my car when I don't have to
- Careless spending
- Minimize short-term interests and focus on the longrun

At the moment I'm juggling between taking quizes and writing this blog. (Not wanting to be repetitive)

I actually have a lot on my mind but I can relax more knowing this accident case may last for years but from what I've known since high school, time goes by fast.

One day, you're dreading to leave college, then you begin to miss high school. One day you lose a relationship, then you look back knowing you're better off now without her. You lose all your money to someone who doesn't even care about you, you laugh it off knowing you've spent less on yourself as a result.

I admit it, I'm a hopeless romantic, I can tend to like someone easily and (not a matter of arrogance) I'm pretty sure I can handle a relationship if given the chance but I guess I'm just as much demanding out of qualities in a girl than some girls expecting a guy to have a car or a job or whatever. I simply want someone who is willing to walk or take the bus to visit me. In other words, it would kill me to hear you want a ride to somewhere in the city.

But if my only options in my personal life was to have a car and an abundant amount of money in my bank account in order to meet the demands of a girl who wants a Gucci or an LV bag, then the world has one less bachelor.

These Past 2 Days - 灰色軌跡

It's been a rough 2 days. I guess there's one song I can relate to.

Winterbreak In Review

So it's official, one more week and then the break itself is over.

It never hit me as hard as this but this will probably be the most boring and loneliest week ever. Everyone is going back to school this week and I'm going to either be at home finishing Assassin's Creed II or at work.

All things aside, this was a pretty long winter break when i think of everything that has happened over the course of a month and a half.

I spent a better half of the break working but outside of work was a different story. I got to chill with the group again and do the usual but I guess one of the most rewarding parts of this break was reconnecting with an old friend.

In regards to school, I haven't been in the best mood for my own academics in a while. I spent most of last semester dreading about business stats and I was 75% sure that I wasn't going to be able to pass it but one of two things probably happened.

1.) I persevered after clawing and scratching my way through the final trying to rack up as much points as I can.

2.) A miracle happened.

Because I ended up passing that class, I was able to choose all the core classes for my major and on the upside, I wasn't waitlisted for any of the classes I registered for.

So next semester, I will be attending class on Tuesdays and Thursdays. This gives me enough time to work or look for a new job. I think its about time I move up the ladder.

Oh by the way, that picture I used for this blog was the only picture I managed to get at New Years. Its funny, for as much as Cathy and I hung out these past weeks, we still didn't get a picture together.

Oh well, maybe next time.

Part 1 was Half-Assed, So here's Part 2

So last night I made a blog regarding the New Year and after reading it this morning, I knew it was rushed and there was a lot lacking in it. So here is part 2.

I always labeled 2008 as the "recovery year" because it was that year where I tried my best to go back to what I had before Tam and also start some new friendships along the way. I had accomplished the first but failed in the other.

Then 2009 came along and I went into it with a closed mindset and believed that I had done enough in 2008 and it was time to just move into another year and forget about all that troubles I had.

Now looking back at much of 2009, I did just that. I focused on myself and worked a lot. Although this may be the first year I actually spent less time at home, it was a very comforting year where I no longer felt lonely.

Even though a second shot at going to a senior prom did not make my first prom worse, it made me understand that even though I tried to replace my first prom with a "better" prom (honestly, I liked my own senior prom more), it was rewarding in a sense that I got to do it with all my close friends.

One of the highlights of 2009 was that drive down to Santa Cruz to visit some old friends. The real meaning behind going was to see whether or not I had made the right choice of rejecting UC Santa Cruz. In the end, I realized a lot of these positives and negatives balance out and I might be a lot more happier staying up here in SFSU than I thought.

Of course this year was difficult in a sense that classes were cut and some were harder but thats never going to change that's for sure. For once in my life, I actually enjoyed work more than I enjoyed school.

There was also a lack of clarity in what I wrote regarding these past few weeks but after some thinking, its more apparent that I enjoy helping others cope with things that seem to bother them.

So what I expect out of 2010. Try harder in school, always have a backup plan, have some patience, don't ever let Alfonso change your homepage to gay porn, and overall, don't waste a lot of hours in a day.

New Years, A Year In Review

It's now officially 2010!

What a great way to end 2009 than with a few parties and gatherings.

So last night I spent New Years Eve with the guys just chilling at Tutti.

Got a call from Cathy and we ended up at the Embarcadero to watch the fireworks.

Interestingly, this marks the second year that I hung out with Cathy on New Years Eve.

Hanging out with Cathy these past few weeks have been really helpful to me. In some ways I admit that I had fulfilled one of my 2009 New Years resolutions to a further extent.

One of the 2009 resolutions was to put my past relationship behind me as far back as possible. After hanging out with Cathy and hearing what shes gone through and having her ask me about what happened between 2007 and 2008, I realized it doesn't hurt to look back at those problems because in the end, you realize that fixing the problems of the past can help make yourself better as a person.

In general, that's what I felt like I've conquered at the end of 2009. A better self and I'm pretty sure third time would be the charm and it doesn't necessarily have to be 2010.

What I want out of 2010 is very uncertain. Cathy asked me that the other night and I really had no idea what to answer with. I don't like to lie but the truth is, after this year I realized I can do without a girlfriend but at the same time, if I do manage to find that one, I would want us to simply start out as friends for a long time and let a relationship develop from it.

I might finish this off with a part 2 but in general, I am grateful for having supportive friends and family and a long term commitment I want is to return the favor and be as supportive as I can.

Merry Christmas!

It's that special time of the year AGAIN!

You know for Christmas in San Francisco, it was pretty damn bright out today.

So I celebrated Christmas by having lunch with my mom and dad at an ABC cafe.

Surprisingly at the cafe, I spotted my grandaunt and I guess you can say a distant uncle and aunt and their kids enjoying lunch so I crashed their table to say hi and wish them a merry Christmas...they paid for our food without us knowing again and their kid said my face got older...good to know I'm not fat =]

So I guess this week has been an interesting week so to speak. I've learned a lot from others and understood more about girls than I have ever had from a usual chat.

I look back at 2008 as a year where I struggled with keeping a relationship and struggled to get used to single life again.

2009 is a totally different story and is not even the opposite. It was a very neutral year. I didn't concentrate on having a relationship and simply worked and concentrated (to an extent) on school.

It is in these final weeks of 2009 that this whole girls and relationships thing that I've ignored for a long time is starting to catch up to me. In no way shape or form am I in love right now and in no way shape or form am I certain it'll happen anytime soon.

But there's always 2010 and...oh wait I am in love at the moment. Lime Popsicles are AWESOME!

Aging

This has never crossed my mind until a few months ago when my friend and I were looking through old pictures and new pictures.

He noticed that I looked a lot skinnier back then (4 years ago) and out of my curiosity, I went took a further look.

There's a lot of through in that. My face is skinnier and my jaw outline was more visible and a bit plainer and neutral face.

Nowadays, I see more lines beneath my eyes and my jaw-outline is a lot more firm. And I guess my cheekbones protrude a bit more.

I can only assume that its just been years of stress.

Then compared to now and I feel like my personality has changed a lot more. It's either matured more or I just became a bit more conservative. Who knows? But then again, those lines beneath my eyes are a bit...hard to look at.

Money: Make and/or Break

So I figure I move onto a more interesting topic of choice for tonight. Money

People say money is the root of all evil but I disagree.

That argument is invalid in the sense that there can be other things that are the root of all evil.

If it is one's love for money that becomes evil, then we can generally conclude that love is the root of all evil.

But anyways, I was with the guys at a lottery place a few nights ago because they have a new interest in scratchers.

So I'm sitting there looking at older couples walk in and out buying ticket after ticket.

You can tell they come in with a lot of hope and ambition hoping they can either do one of 3 things. Win it big, break even, or simply gain.

Unfortunately, that's not the case for most of them. Like my friends, a lot of them ended up losing more.

My philosophy on the lottery is this. If I was to win the lottery, I would be winning at the expense of all the hopes of the people who bought lottery tickets. In fact, it is their money put into a pot and me taking the giant pot. But who can't say the same about the ones who win right?

And then there's the thought of charity. In my eyes, there are two types of charity givers.

1.) Average charity givers who simply care or at least decided to donate unneeded belongings who at least took the consideration into making the decision of donating to the needy.

2.) Rich charity givers. It's hit or miss. They either care about others or they care about their own personal image. Just because a millionaire or celebrity gives money away doesn't necessarily make them a good person. (ex. Sharon Stone)

I respect those who are the first type of charity givers. Now I steer the subject towards the recieving end of the charity.

There are two types of charity receivers that I see in my eyes.

1.) Poor needy people who need the basics in life to try to stabilize themselves into finding a way out of their situation. (Needy college student who can probably afford books but not tuition or both)

2.) Decent low-wage individuals who get something (ex. gov. grant) but use it for the wrong purpose. (College student who gets enough to cover books, education but decides to buy a new handbag or a car or whatever that is not relevant to the cause).

I don't respect the second type of receivers. I label those people as charity cases who are more than likely NOT to give back.

To wrap this all up. Nothing is free in life but then again, I'm wrong. Don't be a charity case.

Good in the Hood

So today was my first time putting a hood one when I'm stuck freezing my ass off at home.

To be honest, I have never worn a hood out in public before except that one time when I was trying to avoid Drama Queen.

And even then, I felt uncomfortable.

But today was different, I put it over my head and forgot about it and my ears were really warm.

It's like that solution to my igloo. I love my hood.

Febreze

Yes, if anyone can wonder how random this blog can get. It's about to get pretty random.

So the story behind why I have a new found love for Febreze stems from recent times.

My dad rented out our downstairs to 2 guys who do computer stuff.

Unfortunately, either their body odor or cooking has created this musty smell that unfortunately due to the laws of physics, causes it to rise to the upperstairs portion of the house.

So everyday I had to endure that disgusting smell until finally, I found this bottle of Febreze in my house.

Worked like a temporary charm but still, if it wasn't for the mortgage, we wouldn't have people living downstairs and we wouldn't have musty smells coming from there.

I swear, when those 2 move out. I am going to celebrate like it's the Hong Kong Handover of 1997.


The lack of recent posts is due to the midterm season. To me, it seems worse than the flu season but eh...

Picasa 3

So I was curious enough to try out Google's Picasa 3 which is an album organizer for pictures stored in the computer.

Much like Mac's iLife software, iPhoto; Picasa also has face-recognition technology built-in and I would have to say that in terms of detecting any face, it works. But iPhoto's ability to recognize faces with precision is still better in my opinion.

So I had a bit of organizing to do and it was pretty crazy.

There were so many photos in my computer and I was lucky to have already organized them into folders but when I sorted them by year, I was amazed.

Yeah, sorted out all pictures tagged as me by years. Can't believe the change in appearances in those 5 years. Then again, I can say the same thing about my friends.

Mission: Bachelor Pad

So after surveying what I can do with my spare time.

I saw the unused downstairs space as the perfect place to create my own bachelor pad.

The first goal obviously, is to buy an LCD TV. I'm hoping for 42 inches or more but I can also settle for 32 inches.

Then connect some surround sound around it and set up a couch against the wall since there is a good amount of space.

Lastly, a tall lamp in the corner to give the room a dim atmosphere.

Facebook Break

It wouldn't be the first time and it definitely won't be the last.

Once again, I find myself in a situation where I can't be distracted by Facebook again. Last time I decided to take a break from Facebook, it was because I needed to get my mind cleared out of my breakup situation (back when you can't hide news feeds that are from others)

Now its simply because its becoming a hectic month with school. Even in my family life, we just had another housing issue with the city and I'm hoping that it will get cleared out and settled as soon as possible.

So with all this going on right now, I can't keep up with this facebook "addiction" that I have.

Oh, interesting note. I've had more than one encounters with someone telling me "You should get settled and get a girlfriend". The only answer I can honestly provide is, either I'm too busy with so much stuff going on at the moment or I'm just not putting too much of an effort into getting one. I'll let others be the judge of that. In other words...no I'm not settled yet.