Valentine's Day

So yesterday was to be considered my first ever Valentines Day.

In many ways, I will always remember that day simply because of what I just wrote.

I was left in an array of different feelings throughout the day. Mostly good, a few bad.

We were originally supposed to watch the sunrise together at the Marin Headlands but we couldn't pull ourselves up and out of bed for it.

I woke up at 8 to see a thick shroud of fog and started to think a lot of the plans had been ruined because of this weather.

The fog was gone and it became a really sunny day at 12 and I met up with Cathy outside her place.

We agreed to ride the boats at Stow Lake but bad traffic prevented us from doing so. Instead I drove along the beach with her until we got to the Embarcadero.

Then we took a ferry to Sausalito. In some ways, the experience was flawed but it was something different and the ferry ride was fun for the most part. The town itself is somewhere I would never go back to however.

Wandered about the place for a long time before finally taking the ferry back to San Francisco around the sunset time.

Grabbed dinner at Chaya Brasserie where I had reservations at. Ate early and lost my request for a table with a view -.-

Then we went off to Cheesecake Factory to grab some tiramisu.

Afterward, we had a strenuous search for Tank Hill. I wish I knew where that entrance was. Didn't succeed and ended up at Twin Peaks. Then the night was over.

Although it was mostly a good feeling that day. I can't help but to feel a sense of incompleteness.

What I mean by incompleteness is both an internal and external issue.

Internally, I feel like I could have done so much more during the more slower and boring times of the day.

Externally, I feel that there were so many factors out there that prevented me from doing more. I won't go into any more details about it since its more of a personal issue.

Overall, I'm satisfied with how most of it went. I'm grateful for having a Valentine. I'm grateful for all the work she had put into the gift and for even making this all happen at the start. I'm grateful for her patience with me and I'm just grateful for having a friend like that.

"Despite some of the flaws with timing and activity. All the good I had done yesterday, were not for me. They were for you." - Terence

I guess the point that I am trying to make is, that despite all my personal flaws and certain anxieties that I've had on my shoulders for some time, I'm grateful that there are people out there that haven't or will not let go of me.